The holidays passed like a whirlwind. Everything and everyone seemed to be screaming to be put on top of the list. I have to give up some hours of sleep to accommodate some urgent demands and pressing requests. It was only last night when I realized that I was not able to prepare myself to go back to my workplace. I humbly recognize that I have deliberately scrapped it from my list.
During the past two weeks, I took on roles that made me forget my responsibilities in the academe. I played my roles as wife, daughter, sister, friend to the hilt. Aside from enjoying my responsibilities of being a blogger, I also savored my assignment as director of a 4-night concert. Days prior to the Christmas Eve, I was in a haze. The rehearsal schedule was full packed, leaving me little room to do my holiday shopping. Doing the grocery for the Noche Buena was like joining a 500-meter-dash, reaching the finish line just minutes before the mall’s closing time.
December 28, 29 and 30 saw me at the concert scene. I failed to attend Mindanao State University’s “Hugpong”, the school’s Grand Reunion. I missed seeing my high school buddies. I decided to skip the reunion because I decided to have quality time with my husband on the 30th for our 4th Wedding Anniversary.
I have to admit that it was a struggle to get out of bed and go back to work today. Thanks to the prodding of my husband and the encouragement of my mother, I was able to muster enough strength to find my way to the bathroom. The next minutes that ensued came like a blur. I found myself crawling back to school but I am glad I made the move.
The moment I was in the campus, I was so energized. There was a spring on my step and a joy in my gait. I was so fired up in the classroom although I only had four out of twenty-five students attending my first class for the year. The second class was better with 24 out of 45 students in attendance.
Today, I was reminded of the reality of my calling. I am a teacher. I am a mind-shaper. I am an influencer. I have the responsibility to rise above my circumstances and my emotions. I have to overcome physical exhaustion and shun mental degradation.
Tomorrow, I will no longer be crawling back to school because I am beautifully reminded that I do not have to rely on my strength. God is there to empower me. God is there to strengthen me.